There comes that moment,
when the illusion shatters.
When what you thought was true,
becames transparently wrong.
This picture perfect life you had painted yourself,
doesn’t exist,
and in it’s wake it leaves a shell of what you knew.
But the shell is just a frame,
and what you attach to it will become your new you,
your new true.
There comes this moment,
when the illusion shatters,
but that doesn’t mean all is lost.
It is what you do with the pieces that matters.
There was this time when I believed my life to be something else,
I would not let way for feelings of weakness,
because they were not in my dream.
I kept pushing a fighting,
but soon I realised,
that until I let the weakness through,
that was not my future.
I used to hate when people said
“You control your own destiny”
it seemed to cliched to be true.
How could I make sure that all I wanted would be there,
if I had shaped that future around you?
Eventually,
the illusion shattered,
and I am thankful each day that it did.
I learnt more of I than I ever knew possible,
and built myself where our dream lived.
When I look back in gratitude,
I mean it.
Because without the lessons I have learnt,
this life I now strive for,
wouldn’t have been.
I believe that if you look for positives,
you will find them,
and that is just what I have done.
The illusion may be shattered,
but my life has only just begun.
Jen Pickering
This piece comes from a writing prompt about writing of shattered illusions. I always try to have a positive outlook in the world and I find it helps to bring positivity back to you. Try and see the good in the bad or try not looking for the bad at all. I am my own biggest cheerleader because positive affirmations help me feel more open with the world. I truely believe it helps. So when talking about shattered illusions, I wanted to twist it to show that just because the illusion is shattered, it doesn’t mean it is bad. That isn’t to say how I try to view things is easy or has been easy, a struggle with anxiety led me to finding new coping methods and this is the best one I have found.
Love Jen x
Jennifer Pickering 